Ahhh! We're moving! It seems to have come on suddenly, but it has been in the back of our minds for quite some time. There are a ton of things I will miss and a ton of things I am not going to miss. For example, the weather here is quite miserable at times and very few days are nice. Also, not to mention the children.... oh, the kids. I miss them like any mom would long to see her kids again after been taken so suddenly and without warning. I think about them daily, and multiple times a day. I am looking forward to this move both physically and emotionally. We need to move on with our lives and start over. I will never forget them, but I do want to forget how much it hurts. Like a fresh wound that will not heal, I need God to come in and heal me.
I will also miss our church. I love them like my family... well, not all of my family, but the family that I wish I had. Family that you see in happy movies, that's my church. I am leaving them. I believe I will miss them much more than they will miss me. They have been there for Matt and I thru it all! Marriage, college, careers, kids, and the loss of the kids. Matt and I are hoping to find a new church, but we are afraid no where will come close. There is no others like our church.
I am also worried about moving. I am worried about employment... or lack there of. I have one job now that will not pay the bills, but it is something. I also have an interview for something that combind, may help tremendiously with the bills, but not everything. Matt has a possible interview, but no one is calling him about any of the jobs he really wants. NO ONE! This is so frustrating! What does he have to do to prove he is a good investment?! Sorry, rant over...
Thanks for letting me just type away letting go of my frustrations and putting them on here. By typing this, I feel freedom. I realize I need to just let go of everything and trust God. He's really the one in charge, so, like a puppy sheepishly handing over the torn and chewed shoe to his owner, I must hand over my worries and doubts because they don't belong to me anyway. I encourage you to do the same.
God Bless you!
